In 1996 I lost my Mom to a brain tumor. It had a debilitating effect on me. It came without warning, and it was unexpected. She was only 59, and she was my best friend in life. After months of waking up in the middle of the night feeling grief deep in my heart and soul, I soon realized that I was suffering from chronic anxiety. I decided to do something about it.
I began by seeking out help for my feelings of depression and hopelessness. I soon realized that my negative emotions stemmed from that strong scotch and water I was drinking before going to bed to help me sleep, after losing my Mom. I soon realized that this form of medication was effecting my mental health and well being. After continually waking up in the wee hours of the morning, where I found my thoughts turned negative, I reached out for some support.
I was divinely guided to a group for my depression by a friend in faith, after reaching out to him for a recommendation of the person who helped him with his issues. I knew that I didn't want to feel depressed or hopeless anymore, so I called him on the phone after pulling my car to the side of the road for guidance. In my feelings of hopelessness, I felt the urgency to end my suffering.
It turns out that the person that helped my friend Vaughn with his food addiction issues, was also helping a whole group of folks with addiction issues. I went in immediately, filled out the form, and Joe asked me if I was drinking. I said, "Yes. I've been drinking a strong scotch and water at to go to sleep at night ever since my Mom passed away, six months ago." Joe asked me if I would be willing to quit for 30 days, since everyone in the group was there for drinking, drugging, or gambling. I told him, "Yes, I can do that."
As it turns out, this group was just what I needed to set my healing path in motion. And it started with my realization that I couldn't handle the effects of alcohol on my nervous system.
I decided to dive deep into the 12-Step program that Joe was teaching. I learned a lot about my family history relating to alcoholism, and I made the decision to overcome my depression, hopelessness, and ultimately my struggles with alcoholism, as an adult child of an alcoholic.
After about a month of group and a month of after care, I began to feel much better. I rewarded myself with a trip to Europe to study abroad in Florence, Italy. It was really fun.
My Aunt encouraged me to do it. And I'm so glad that I did. And I'm grateful that I chose to face my issues with chronic anxiety from a spiritual perspective instead of running from it. I tackled it head on and found ways to get out of my stinkin' thinkin'. I made the choice to overcome my anxiety holistically. I was done with self-medicating.
What I Did To Overcome My Anxiety Stemming from Negative Thinking
I began to research ways to become happy.
I journaled through my issues and I prayed and meditated to overcome my anxiety so that I could become happy.
I studied about meditation, and I learned to let the thoughts pass through my mind rather than focusing on them as taught in Yoga Psychology: A Practical Guide to Meditation. By Swami Ajaya. This was very helpful and healing.
I experimented with these teachings and I was able to transmute through my negativity and return to a healthy state of mind.
Next I read and learned how to live in the present moment, as taught in The Power of Now, By Eckart Tolle. Learning to be present changed my life forever! I no longer focused on the past trauma and I stopped reliving those negative emotions.
I prayed and meditated daily about these lessons, and I adapted them into my new way of living.
I read and adapted what Louise Hay taught in her spiritual healing book entitled, You Can Heal Your Life. And I read her Power Thought Cards on a regular basis to change my negative thought patterns to positive thought patterns.
I became happier and my self-esteem began to improve.
It's been 25 years since I overcame my anxiety and I am now living a more peaceful and happy inner life.
Prayers are a powerful way to transmute through our suffering.
Not long after that, I found that my life had totally transformed. I was no longer drinking. My depression and feelings of hopelessness vanished. And my anxiety was a thing of the past after I decided that I wasn't going to hold onto any old thought patterns that were causing me to relive my past which triggered my unhappiness. These three lessons were three of the most powerful lessons in life for me to help me to become happy and mentally healthy.
It's been 25 years since I overcame my anxiety and I am now living a more peaceful and happy inner life. I chose to be happy. I decided not to go down that painful path of addiction the way my father did, and I decided that I would never cause that kind of pain and suffering for anyone in my life either. Making these powerful decisions took courage and grit, but ultimately they changed my life for the better. And now here I am, many years later, with no desire to drink and no desire to go down that rabbit hole of anxiety ever again. Isn't it amazing how powerful our minds are to heal our bodies and souls once we make up our mind to? I am fascinated with the power of our minds to heal our bodies from chronic disease. With the right thought patterns and the will to win, we can overcome any challenges with sheer determination and a never give up attitude.
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